Archive | April 1, 2012

Share Your World Sunday Week #17

I find by the time Sunday rolls around the mental and emotional fatigue of living with a health condition that is not managed tends to get the best of me. NO! That is not true. I tend to let it begin to get the best of me.

 { I do not mean to be whining even though I am}

The thoughts that I typically never see on my radar start rumbling along Saturday afternoon and into evening if they are going to rear their ugly heads.

By nature I am a pretty up person, finding life easy to navigate despite stumbling blocks in the way. We all have them and I try really hard to not let the moments that I struggle internally with to show on the face of my relationships. I have never found any comfort in letting others find my own trials and tribulations, knowing intimately they have their own they as well. I feel no need to share my own.

Yet by some Sunday morning’s- only some- I find myself just too burned out to put any more effort into trying to keep the upper lip stiff. This had been one of those weeks, and by the week’s end one of those thankfully rare Sunday’s. Thinking negatively I’m more than aware is life draining energy. Not something I have much room for.

This is one of the best reason’s I have for participating in Cee’s Share Your World Sunday. Not only do Cee’s questions take me away from the hum drum downward smile of my inward view, they also take me out side of my self, and outside my world which lets me focus on other people. In a positive way I have come to be rather smitten with this quiet time on Sunday. it’s becoming ritualistic for me.

Thanks again Cee , for not just a healthy way to turn away from negative thinking, but a fantastic & creative experience every Sunday!  I need all the good and positive energies I can muster.

Here are my answers to Cee’s questions:

  • At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?

Just in the last year I have come to search for a particular personal quest. These last few weeks I have found that answer for myself, and it’s truly liberating. I realized that by my own actions and choices I was opting to continue to let myself be drained in a way that does not re-feed me. Finding the guts to let something go that for so long did in fact did feed my soul could be frightening as I have nothing yet in its place. Just the hole right now. But the hole feels better than the “thing” that drained me for all the wrong reasons. I feel most passionate about the time it leaves open for more, for that which will feed my soul.

  • What individual item of food would you not eat, even if it was served to you at the Queen/President’s dinner table? (Something ordinary.)

Cooked spinach, I mean cooked to the point of being slimy. Ewwww…!!

  • If you could choose between Wisdom and Luck, which one would you pick?

Wisdom it would be. Luck I have no way to manage, wisdom is manageable and something that can be duplicated over and over. Luck? I’m thinking maybe not so much.

  • What was the last time you went to a new place?

Great Question! I am not as good about doing this as I’d like to be. I actually went to a new spot in an old place not long ago. I recently wrote about being turned on to a magnificent spot called Crafter’s Warehouse. It’s in Oregon’s capital city, Salem which is an old place for me. I’ve been going to Salem since a young child as a school student visiting our state government, and as an adult when I worked for the state PTA Governor’s Board. Seeing Salem through the eyes of someone who did not grow up knowing our capital city as a child is one of the coolest ways to also see new spots. Thanks D. so much for that!

awhhh..feel so like I have quieted the loose tiger in me..

 

©TJHELSER 2012

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