Archive | March 13, 2012

I’m Just So Angry!

English: Robert Plutchik's Wheel of Emotions

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Just a few words because if I don’t vent I may explode.

I’m embarrassed, ashamed, and angrier than I know what to do with it.

What is wrong with the man who single handed wiped out 16 people in a rage?

I wish we knew.

Although there is not going to be an answer to that question that satisfies me. I have no heart left for someone who can walk in, look a child in their eyes, and shoot!  And again and again. 4 children dead. 12 adults gone. 16 innocent people wiped out in seconds!

It’s all too much, I’ve been hardly able to absorb.

There is no explanation. Nothing makes any sense. I cannot stop thinking about this. And, knowing I have a very good friend right now in this same country that  I am frightened for does not make it any easier to ignore. [Retalliation is sure to come]. I  continue to pray. God what is wrong with some people that makes them capable of such evil?  Is there something I as a sister in my community can do? I feel so helpless.

Writing about it may be even adding energy to something I so don’t want any part of, yet I am part of it. So are all of us in some way. It’s been eating away at me for a few days. My staying quiet has not served me well. And possibly not served Spirit’s intentions well.

This makes me question who in this man’s family stayed quiet as well. Was there really no clue that something was a miss? No one knew this man was pushing?

People are going to say, have mercy, this man who so violently and with zero shame took 16 livs has a family.

So what?!! What about the families and friends who were left to see the massacere this one person was able to commit?

I’m really so sorry for them all.

What is wrong with him? Do I even care? Does it matter to me in the end?

NO!

I am just so angry, so dosappointed, and so so embarrassed for this country. Shame on this person!

This rage that has no where to go, how does God do it? How does He take the souls of such humans and forgive? I’m not able to yet. It’s all to much.

When will we realize that power of just a few is not the way?

Is it not enough?

God helps us.