Come on Sandman, Don’t fail me now!

Needing Some Caffiene.

Who Slept?

 

Wide awake, in the middle of the night, in the early morning. Again.

I have had an insomnia issue related to the illnesses I have. Having chronic pain being a huge part of my life does not bode well for sleep either. So I am never sure which it is, or is it a combo of the two causing me to not sleep. I get a tease every now and then and sleep for several days even weeks in a row, albeit only 4 -6 hours per night but so much better than 0-2 hours If I am lucky.

I am tired all the time, part of this is due to the two illnesses I have. But not sleeping leaves me feeling irritable, frustrated, and even angry. Why on some nights is sleep not elusive at all?  Other nights, most often, sleep eludes me for most of the night if not all.

I need to have a consistent sleep pattern. Why does the Sandman seem to skip me in  his rounds? There is no answer, may never be one.

Is it just enough that I recognize that this is who I am?  Is it enough that I know part of my weight problem is coming from lack of sleep?

{ Image above by; Jensdigi Stamps 2011)

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3 thoughts on “Come on Sandman, Don’t fail me now!

  1. This was 2011, August, Toni. Do you still have insomnia, I wonder? I hope not. I related to this post though as when I was depressed, I couldn’t sleep as I didn’t want to see the next day, and didn’t want to “fall asleep & wake up and it was time to keep going”.

    • You are such a treasure girl! Finding these obscure middle of the night ramblings and you take the time to comment too.
      Thank you, thank you.
      I do still have severe insomnia as it is referred to by my doc’s. But in 2013 now I can say I have just accepted this as it is just what i do. I have stopped fighting how it affects my life; instead I am working with it.
      One of the benefits of being both retired and single now is I can make my schedule and lifestyle to suit my sleep deprivation.
      Now if I can meet a guy somewhere down the road who doesn’t sleep I’d have the best of both worlds. … 😉

      • Love your positiveness Toni, & I don’t see why there wouldn’t be another insomniac around the corner 🙂

        I love reading old posts, to be honest – seeing how people progressed through their own blog – seeing where they were/where they are now.

        Thanks for telling me where you’re at as I was wondering – as in, does insomnia pass as your life balances more (I think yours has balanced more, the way I read it). But seems not. It’s so curious, so strange – but I admit I’m a little jealous you get so much time to blog, to write. I am a wretch without 8 hours. I admire you’ve brought yourself to cope with it.

You are most welcome to share your thoughts, comments, and/or complaints here. Know though complaints are only handled on the 2nd Tuesday of the week.~ The Management

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